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今天很心血來潮的想談一談"分手"

以前小時候,覺得戀愛就是兩個相愛的人在一起,性格不合就分手

重點來了,"性格不合就分手"

以前沒什麼經驗,覺得"性格不合就分手"是最合理的原因

那些甚麼家長不同意,遠距離戀愛都是胡扯

但是現在,我才了解到"性格不合"才是真正的胡扯

兩個人,如果一開始就性格不合,那為甚麼會在一起?

就是因為他們都愛對方

那為甚麼過後會因為本來就存在的"性格不合"而分手?

就是因為沒了愛

他們已經不愛對方了,所以不能再包容他們性格上的不合

如果愛還是存在,那麼所謂的"不合"都會被包容和遷就

在一起就不會有問題

相反的,家長反對就很合理

對於那些跟家人很親近的,這絕對是合理的理由

因為如果家人一直反對,從中作梗,那麼本來好好的一段感情也會被外來的壓力給弄垮

遠距離戀愛也是情有可言

兩個人的話題不再相同,認識的人不再一樣,久而久之也是會走遠

但是也不能說遠距離就不會有結果

因為還是有很多人突破了所有障礙最終還是在一起了

說到底,"性格不合"是我見過最扯的理由

要說性格不合,不如說已經不再愛了

好了今天就這樣

來說些題外話

昨天胃風疼得死去活來,連訊息都無法回了

今天在推特還看到有人說自己肚子多麼多麼疼都不能站了必須坐輪椅,

還能按電話拍照更新推特呢!

你是有多疼了?= =

好了現在真的結束了

Ciao~

Gonna do my best

I admit I'm not a very good blogger. In fact, I'm the worst blogger, for not updating as regularly as a real blogger should be. I'm always having free time at home, apart from going out with my partner, or dinner date with my close friends. But I just can't spare out some time for my blog.

The reason I'm back now, is not because I have a sudden realization, is because I've started reading a book called The Happiness Project not long ago, and I went to the author's website and found my motivation to blog again. And it's not only I found the motivation to blog again, but motivation to live my life fuller and happier.

Blogging regularly is always one of the thing I wanted to do, but I just never keep up to my promise: I said I will update regularly and I just happened to disappear for a few months and come back for one post and then disappear again. That's not what I mean for update regularly. Now, I want to try my best to update my blog. Maybe once a week, or twice a week. I hope I can do it more often after I buy a new camera, because that's mean I will take more pictures and I'll have more pictures to upload.

So, today, the 1st of November, I will try my best to update my blog more often.





Till then. Sophie

Back in action

Well, it's been 9 months since I last updated. 

I think this is the longest gap I didn't update my blog since I started blogging.

So, hi to everyone who still constantly visiting my blog although I'm not updating.

I've been thinking to quit blogging for the passed few months, 

maybe just delete this account or just make it private.

But I thought, why? It's a place for me to share my thoughts when I've no one to talk to.

It's like a personal place for me to spill out everything, 

this was the main purpose when I started to blog.

So, I keep it.

And I want to blog again, more constantly I suppose. *finger crossed*

I've been growing so much in the passed few months,

my thoughts are so different than before.

I read back something I wrote and it's like reading another person's thought.

I couldn't believe that's what I wrote months before. 

It feels like I have split personality but it was really me who wrote it.

Many things happened. Many things have changed.

Some people come and go, some come and stay and will never leave.

I appreciate those who are willing to stay in my life, thank you.

And for those who left, thank you for making me grow and teach me lesson.

Time flies in a wink.

Couldn't accept it is already 19th of December.

It's 6 days till Christmas and it feels like I just celebrated last year's Christmas last week.

Time sometimes horrifies me. 

The photo above was me first time trying out curly hair, it was for the prom night of my college. 

Still looking good but a little bit more matured, don't you think?

I think that's all for now.

Merry Christmas and Happy Holiday to everyone!

-Sophie

The Hunger Games

I've recently finished reading the book one of The Hunger Games(for the movie's sake), in 1 day to be precised.
My friends told me not to read the book before the movie because the book is better, but meh, I don't afraid of spoilers now, lol.

There's Team Peeta and Team Gale going on in the internet(although some say that's not Twilight so we don't need team), but I personally LOVE Peeta Mellark more, after reading the first book, and watched the movie. I haven't start the second book yet so I may not know more about Gale, but for now, I'm all for Peeta.

I like how Josh Hutcherson cast for Peeta, because he's got the look of how I imagined Peeta would be. He looks so innocent, and cute, just Peeta. But for Katniss, I imagined she will be more tiny, and a little girly, just nothing like Jennifer Lawrence. Katniss was 16 years old in the book, but JL's look is nothing near 16(just my opinion).

The movie was amazing, but not as amazing as the book, obviously. There's a bunch of guys sitting next to me in the theater, when they saw how fast the effect was when Katniss apply the medicine on Peeta's leg, they were like "dafuq?! That's ridiculous! blah blah blah..." and I was like "dude, they're in the future. Can't they have advanced medical technology already?" Meh, I bet they never read the book. :x

I would rate the movie for 8/10, I know it's not easy to have put everything into the movie in 2 hours plus, but I still felt like the movie was going too rush... Everything was going too fast before we even realize it. But afterall, they're just my opinion.


So, have you seen the movie yet?




Sophie

Bookworm in process

I had been reading a lot lately, since I quit my job

So I have a lot of time to read while I'm at home

I finished the Twilight series, then I continue with The White Queen and The Red Queen by Philippa Gregory

They're not the white queen and red queen from Alice in the Wonderland lol

but the queen and heiress from the 15th century in England and Wales

The stories were based in fact, but its' fiction novel

Talked about the story of the White Queen, Elizabeth Woodville and the Red Queen, Margeret Beaufort

It' about the war of roses, the missing Princes in the Tower, the water goddess Melusina...

I don't want to have spoilers here so I should just stop telling about the story

But overall I like the White Queen more because the story is more cheerful, and positive than the Red Queen

I can't say the Red Queen was bad but the White Queen was just came out to be more... happy to read

So, I recommend you guys to have a look to these books, if you like English historical story/love story/witchcraft/fairy tale, you would love them!

xoxo, Sophie

Happy 2012 and new year resolutions

Hey guys, it's 2012!

So it means new start and kick off the bad stuff and bad habits and bad luck!

And my new year resolutions are:

1. Spend less money. My last year's resolution was earn or save but I did not do it so this year would be spend less. But the term of 'less'... will be me to decide. LOL

2. LOSE WEIGHT. This would be my biggest resolution of the year! I've gained so much weight in the passed year and if I don't control and try to lose weight now, I will be super FAT. 

3. Exercise more. I need to start to exercise in the future and not just rotting at home. Yeah.

4. Control my temper. Temper is always one of my issue I want to get rid of. I have bad temper. Urgh. :/

5. Finish the Bible. Yeah. Finish it.

6. Maintain a healthy lifestyle. Regular sleeping time, eat well, exercise, and ENJOY LIFE!

These are my resolutions of  the year, what's yours? 

Loves, Sophie

The one I loved

I had been struggling to publish this post since it's so private and I never talk about this to anyone since then. But I have decided to publish it since this is my blog, and who cares what others think. And lastly, don't judge.

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I've read through XiaXue's blog post about Mike and she, THE Love Story, and I thought of my relationship with a guy in Canada, which is kinda similar to the pre-relationship of Wendy(aka XiaXue) and Mike. Just we didn't make it through to the day he comes. He was planning to come to Malaysia to visit me and was saving money at that moment. The difference was me and him were still young, which Wendy was already earning and was a little bit older than us at that moment.


I still remember I added him as friend in Facebook in August 2009, but we didn't chat until I found out he knows Mandarin and I chatted with him in Facebook in March 2010, out of curiosity. We started to chat about random stuff, but not everyday due to the different time zone, and then to MSN... We started to liking each other after a month+, and in May I was going on a vacation to China and Hong Kong for 5 days and I found out I missed him like hell. After I came back, he told me he was missing me too and that's the time we got much closer.


He stayed up late every night just to chat with me and webcam with me. We're so in love at that moment, but one thing I don't like about him was he got emotional pretty easily, which pissed me off. My friends were all thought that: that's not gonna work out, you're both too far away blah blah blah, but I didn't care. He was planning to come and I promised to bring him around, but that also stressed me out because I'm still in college and I don't have much time to accompany him when he comes. I started to feel miserable after a few months because of his absent in real life, I can just see him in webcam, but not touch or smell or anything.


I broke up with him in August 2010, which was, actually, I scolded him away! How cruel I was! I remember he was very upset about something, and his emotion made me upset too. We argued, he said I don't care much about him, he wants me to be more soft, which sometimes I didn't, like when he's angry and says he's going to sign off, he wants me to stop him, which usually I won't. Then I thought I couldn't live like that in the future, being controlled by his emotion, be the one he wants me to be, so I want to end this relationship as soon as possible before I fell even deep into it. He begged me, argued with me, begged me again, but I still very stubborn and want him to go and never come back(to me). I kept telling myself: you won't regret, you did the right thing, blah blah blah just to comfort myself but I had a really hard time for another 1 or 2 weeks. I know, deep in my heart, I love him more than anything, but I kept telling myself that he's not the one and it's very hard for a LDR, just to cut him out of my life.


I sometimes still feel very regret about letting him go, but what can I do now? That's my decision, and I'd hurt him so so much, I can't even imagine it. I looked back to our emails and our chats, every words by him was so full of passion, and love. Maybe I was too young to understand all about that, but for me, right now, I can feel how much passion and love he had put in those words, I just didn't realize it. Every emails he sent to me were like love letter, so long, and so passionate. At that time, I just can't accept so much of his love, when I can't give him back in return. His love made me breathless, and stress(I can see from my reply in those emails), that's why I wanted to let him go/leave him.


I was hardly regret in decision I've made in my life, but now, I'm super regret for letting him go. If I didn't, he would have came to Malaysia in last Christmas, and I would have spent my holiday in Canada after new year. I know I wouldn't change anything by writing this post, but I just wanna spit everything out here, the only place I can write anything I want. He's dating a girl in Canada now, and I'm very happy for him, since he looks happy being with her.

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Matt, even we didn't make through it, but thanks for the time you sacrificed your sleep and chat with me, accompany me and make me happy. I will always remember that moment, when we're so in love, like there's no distance between us. And thanks for the love you gave me. Sorry for hurting you so much, and hope you will forgive me. 












Sophie

Car crash

Today I was all so excited to go watch Puss in Boots with Claire and Grace, but I was still very distracted from the Twilight's story I had recently got into. I was distracted all the way when I was driving, maybe not all because of Bella and Edward but I just can't focus on the road, and when I almost reach the destination, I thought I missed the turn to the parking lot so I glanced to the side mirror and then I crashed the car in front of me.


It was a Chinese young guy(again) I ran the crashed into, and he's very kind and patient to wait for my dad to come, and not rude at all, like scold us and all that, which I'm very, very glad. I couldn't imagine if the guy is replaced with a... maybe a mid-aged Malay guy or Indian guy, not that it's bad or what but probably we can't communicate with my poor Malay language.


The front of my car's totally destroyed, with just a number of 25 left on the car plate. His car's rear and bumper were sag and the trunk couldn't open at all. He thought we're going to claim for car insurance so he was taking pictures and stuff, and I just stood there and do nothing. After he's done we pulled our car to the side and wait for my dad. My dad came after 30 minutes and told the guy we're not claiming for insurance and will settle things up with just money, because if we claim the car insurance, first, there's too many procedure that need to go through; second, I might have to stick my [P] for another two years; and third, the car won't be done well with those car repair workers that work for the insurance company(something like that).


I was totally in shock but the guy is so kind, he tried to calm me down and asked if we're all right. I was totally fine but Claire got a blue black on her knee, which is still fine. I'm so grateful that no one was hurt, and my dad didn't scold me at all. Regret that I didn't take some pictures of the car so that I can post it at here. And something I should be happy about, I got to repaint my car! So, what color should I paint? Black, white, or light baby pink?



Update: Joe saw her friend liked this photo that posted by that guy on her Facebook so I go to steal it. What a small world~

Still alive, Sophie

PINK

My favourite colour has always been pink since I was in primary school, before that I liked orange, and then red, and at last is pink. I want every of my accessories to be pink, as pink as possible. My pencil, pen, eraser, ruler, pencil case, school bags... I want them to be pink, but since I was so young, I can't really make it all 'pink', but at least I've tried and I was satisfied with it.


When I went into secondary school, I still remain the same, but something that can't be pink I won't make it pink, I just use the similar colour like red or purple, but definitely not blue. Not that I hate blur colour, but I just feel like blue isn't my colour. :/


So, as I grow older, I like more other colours like brown, white and black. But I'm still super obsess with everything that comes in pink, especially baby pink. I want everything to be pink, even my facial wash, shampoo, mouse, body lotion, like seriously, everything. If not, it would rather be brown, white or black.


But something really weird is, I don't like clothes that comes in pink, maybe it's because my skin tone doesn't fit or maybe I think it's too... bright? IDK I just not prefer pink for my clothes. But I still love accessories that come with pink colour though. ;)


I know I'm lame talk about pink or this random stuff all in a sudden, but I'm just really bored and thought I should write a blog post of the colour I love.



'till then, Sophie

Another 100

Sorry guys, have been really busy and I'm having my finals until next month. This's just another personal info about me, if you're wondering. 'till then, Sophie. 

BOLD what applies to you:

01. You’re currently confused about someone’s feelings for you.

02. You have been in a serious relationship before.

03. You own an iPod of some sort.

04. You do not like your sibling’s girlfriend/boyfriend.

05. You drink too much alcohol.

06. You have been to the Olive Garden.

07. You have taken medicine of some sort this week.

08. It is really cold in your house right now.

09. You are extremely dependent on others.

10. You do not like to express your feelings in front of others.

11. You ate a lot of food today.

12. It doesn’t take much for you to cry.

13. People consider you as a happy sort of person.

14. Someone in your family is rich.

15. You have been to Disney World or Disneyland before.

16. You hate when people constantly talk about themselves.

17. You are a good listener, but you hate complainers.

18. Someone has called you for a serious medical emergency before.

19. You have had a serious surgery.

20. Your house has a spare bedroom.

21. Your house is old.

22. You have at least one cousin under the age of three.

23. You have never held a baby before.

24. You can’t handle toddlers.

25. You have a painting in your room.

26. You have been to Canada.

27. You have been to Mexico.

28. You love cherry flavored lollipops.

29. You celebrate Easter.

30. You observe Lent.

31. You are Catholic.

32. You do not believe in God.

33. Religion is not important to you.

34. You want to have a small family one day.

35. You would rather have more sons than daughters.

36. You have more aunts than uncles.

37. You hate being too cold.

38. You currently are way tanner than everyone else.

39. You wear shoes in your house.

40. Your parents are clean freaks.

41. You are more messy than clean.

42. You are currently angry at someone.

43. Patience is so not a virtue to you.

44. Your desk is extremely clean.

45. Your bed sheets are either blue, green, black, or white.

46. When you hear “black & white” it reminds you of Katy Perry’s ‘Hot n Cold’ song. 

47. You have no clue what that song is.

48. You think rap artists are completely pathetic.

49. You are glad George Bush is out of office.

50. Politics are boring to you.

51. You take a vitamin daily.

52. You feel like you are sick often.

53. You hate throwing up.

54. You think it’s gross when people set food down on their desk at school with no napkin.

55. You also find it gross that people sit on top of desks.

56. You are now cringing at the thought of someone’s food where someone’s ass was.

57. You love getting bubble baths.

58. You do not like chocolate at all.

59. You are allergic to nuts.

60. You have been stung by a bee before.

61. You have been to the emergency room before for something.

62. One of your parents is 50 or older.

63. You are the baby of your immediate family.

64. You hate broccoli. 

65. Cooked carrots are good, though.

66. You go on tumblr too much.

67. You are really comfortable right now.

68. You like witty t-shirts.

69. You are a major fan of underground bands.

70. You have been on an airplane before.

71. You are not afraid of heights. (not much)

72. You consider yourself paranoid.

73. You have had a panic attack before.

74. The thought of being old and alone bothers you.

75. You would choose the elderly over children.

76. You feel like you’re living in the wrong decade.

77. You like the color green.

78. You think it’s way too cold outside right now.

79. You love the thought of sleeping in tomorrow morning.

80. You would rather go to bed early and get up early.

81. You feel like the early bird catches the worm.

82. You are currently suffering from the common cold.

83. You are a big breakfast eater.

84. You are craving something salty.

85. You have been in a car today.

86. There is something plugged in near you.

87. You have heard of the TV show “Private Practice.”

88. You do not like medical television shows.

89. You prefer horror to comedies.

90. You adore Leo & Kate.

91. You think high-waisted pants look good.

92. You hate cheesy movies.

93. You enjoy camping out.

94. Bugs bother you. -a lot.

95. You do well in school without trying.

96. You are extremely jealous of someone currently.

97. You feel like you have changed a lot from 08-09.

98. You like energy drinks.

99. You like italics.

100. You know the entire script of Mean Girls.

A little update

Hey peeper, yes, I changed my header, and add a music player. I used to hate blogs with music, especially rock songs. But mine is not rock song, or loud ones, they're all very soothing songs, feel free to listen them all, you will fall in love with them. :)

And about my header, I thought I should change a new one since the old one had been there for years, and I'm so in love with camera lately, so I thought a header full of old cameras would be nice, every camera is full of memories, every camera has their own story. 




Enjoy, S

50 Random Questions Tag

I was surfing through the net and I found these tag questions which I thought is kinda fun, so let's get started! :)


Where were you 3 hours ago?
Online in my room.


Who are you in love with?
I'm NOT in love with anyone right now as in boyfriend or crush. I love my family, my friends and my puppy.

Have you ever eaten a crayon?
Nope. 

Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
Yes. My iPhone(it's currently in it's pink casing), a gift box, another gift box, my cosmetics bags and many more. I love pink so think about it.

When is the last time you went to the mall?
Last Friday to celebrate Jus's birthday.

Are you wearing socks right now?
Nope, I don't wear socks at home.

Does your family have a car worth over RM50,000?
Yes.

When was the last time you drove out of town?
When I went out with Jus to celebrate her birthday.

Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days?
Yes. RAPUNZEL!!

Are you hot?
No, I'm good, today's weather is just fine.


What was the last thing you had to drink?
Milk.

What are you wearing right now?
A BG-T with a knee length jeans, and my glasses.

Do you wash your car or let the car wash do it?
Erm... I don't wash my car... I did but just once and my dad did it for me. 

Last fast food that you ate?
McDonald's. 

Where were you last week at this time?
At home.

Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
Yes.

When is the last time you ran?
Last year cross country run?

What's the last sporting event you watched?
GuangZhou Asian Game. 

What is your favorite animal?
Dogs.

Your dream vacation?
Somewhere beach or sunny like Hawaii.


Last person's house you were in?
Jus's grandma's house. 

Worst injury you've ever had?
Ankle sprain. Or maybe just bruise on my knee and elbows? 

Have you been in love?
Yes.

Do you miss anyone right now?
Yes. I miss my grandpas and grandma in the heaven. I miss them a lot. 

Last play you saw?
Can't remember...

What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?
Hmmm... I think I don't have any? 

What are your plans for tonight?
Do my mask and maybe editing some photos I took yesterday night. 

Who is the last person you sent a Facebook message or comment?
Vivian to wish her happy birthday. 

Next trip you are going to take?
Genting Highlands with Justina! OMG I'm so excited! 

Ever go to camp?
Yes. Mostly are family camp with the church members. 

Were you an honor roll student in school?
Yes I was an honor roll student in school when I was in standard 3. 

What do you want to know about the future?
I don't really want to know about the future, if really want to know I just want to make sure if everything goes well in my life.

Are you wearing any perfume or cologne?
No I don't wear perfume.

Are you due sometime this year for a doctor's visit?
No.

Where is your best friend?
Probably at home or having dinner with her family.

How is your best friend?
She's fine thank you.

Do you have a tan?
No but my skin color is kinda dark and I'm working hard to make it fairer. 

What are you listening to right now?
I'm not listening to anything right now.

Do you collect anything?
Yes.

Who is the biggest gossiper you know?
King? He's like one of the biggest gossiper I've ever known.

Last time you got stopped by a cop or pulled over?
It's in this September if I'm not mistaken. You would know if you've read my blog. On that day I went out with Selles and I was stopped by a cop caz maybe I was speeding(I can't really remember), and I bribed him. Yeah.

Have you ever drank your soda from a straw?
Yes. But I'm not a soda person so I don't drink soda that often... Maybe once or twice a year.

What does your last text message say?
'Wait inside or outside?'

Do you like hot sauce?
Yeah. 

Last time you took a shower?
This morning. 

Do you need to do laundry?
No. Sometimes yes.

What is your heritage?
What does this really mean actually? Maybe some really valuable stamps that my grandpa left for us?

Are you someone's best friend?
Yeah I hope so.

Are you rich?
No.

What were you doing at 12AM last night?
Bath. Just came back from Jus's party and I went to bath immediately and went to sleep. 






That's all and I tag ALL OF YOU who are reading my blog. 
xx, Sophie

你该知道的事 Things you should know

1.收到甜言蜜語的短信，記得微笑，然後刪除。

2.想辦法努力賺錢，而不是如何省錢。

3.憤怒的時候，數到30，再說話。

4.喜歡的東西自己努力買，不要指望別人送。

5.少喝果汁多吃水果，少吃零食多喝水，少坐多站，少想多看，少說多做，少懷舊多憧憬。

6.永遠不會再有第二個男人像爸爸這樣愛你，所以最愛的男人當然是爸爸。

7.不要24小時都想念同一個人。可以分一點給家人和朋友。

8.不要認為找個有錢男人就什麼都有了。世界上年輕的女孩子，多的就像貨櫃上的可樂，喝不喝都無所謂。

9.吃下去的就堅決不再吐出來，所以吃之前要想清楚。

10.寂寞的時候，不要聽慢歌，懷舊或者膩死在網上，站起來做運動或者去找朋友八卦。

11.看透的時候，假裝沒看透。

12.工作的你，和遊手好閒的你，絕對不是同一個人。

13.做好防曬，但記得適當地曬曬太陽。心情也會進行光合作用。真的。

14.真正看中的東西就買，不要借錢，想清楚之後再決定，決定之後就不要後悔 。

15.銀行卡的密碼不要用男友的生日。

16.永遠不向從前的戀人訴苦。

17.出門之前，根據步行的時間和強度考慮要穿的鞋子。

18.要讀好書,陶冶情操,提高品位。

19.可以淘便宜的衣服，但記得自己的品位比這個價位高。

20.桌上的護膚品永遠比化妝品多，貴，好，對於女人來說外養不如內調。

21.養成寫日記的習慣，哪怕隻言片語。

22.可以不認同，但學會尊重。

23.注重內心，但不忽略外表。

24.做不了決定的時候，讓時間幫你決定。如果還是無法決定，做了再說。寧願犯錯，不留遺憾!

25.打電話的時候記得微笑，對方聽的見。

26.每月記帳，每月儲蓄。

27.瞭解潮流，但不必跟風。

28.看起來多大年齡，就有多大年齡。

29.相信愛情和mr.right的存在，在此之前也不拒絕和mr.wrong們分享人生。

30.如果發短資訊給你喜歡的人，他不回。不要再發

31.不要為了任何人任何事折磨自己。比如不吃飯、哭泣、自閉、抑鬱，這些都是傻瓜才做的事。當然，偶爾傻一下有必要，人生不必時時聰明

32.穿有質感的衣服，找有品質的男朋友。他不一定很有錢，但是一定要能讓你有安全感和開心。

33.如果決定離開一個人，行動要快一點，快刀斬亂麻；如果決定愛上一個人，時間拉長一點，看清楚是否適合你。

34.閒情時候自己煮花茶煮咖啡喝，或者做茶點吃，放一段柔情音樂，翻閱幾頁好書，然後睡個懶覺，快哉。

35.學會承受痛苦。有些話，適合爛在心裡，有些痛苦，適合無聲無息的忘記。當經歷過，你成長了，自己知道就好。

36.任何場合，保持應有的涵養。學會說謝謝、辛苦您、對不起。做錯了事情要懂得道歉和改過。